Jehovah Jireh

Today I have been thinking a lot about my car (yes, the one I crashed)! I have mixed feelings about transportation in general right now. I wonder if I will be apprehensive about getting back behind the wheel when my time comes. I wonder what sort of a wheel I will be getting behind. I also wonder about the method God will used to provide me with a new vehicle. I find myself sort of "morning" the loss of my last car. I was really attached to it not because it was an exceptional vehicle asthetically speaking, but because it was exceptional to me in that it was a constant reminder of God's continual provision in my life. I have had the incredible opportunity of sharing with people that God does, indeed, provide. My last car was given to me by some people who've shown repeated compassion for me in the last couple of years (thus, the attachment). I found myself in a position just this past August where I needed a vehicle. I currently own a Chrysler 300M that does not run due to a blown engine. I remember the day this happened; the feeling of complete helplessness and depression and not knowing how I would get to work and back or how I would get to church.

The next morning, I contacted one of my pastors and asked him to pray about a new vehicle for me. During that very same conversation, he told me that he had a vehicle that he would GIVE to me. This was the same vehicle that I crashed a couple of weeks ago. I was so amazed at the way God chose to provide and have always been attached to that car because of the constant reminder that He is Jehovah Jireh, my Provider. I'm sure people get very tired of hearing me say that there is a difference between BELIEVING and KNOWING. Because of that experience, I KNOW that God will continue to provide for me. I am even a little excited to see what He will do in making such a provision. I have begun to pray about this and am asking others to pray as well. If my life could be a constant testimony of God's provision and protection, I would be very happy to have such a testimony. I realize the earthly cost, but if you think about it, cars are just "stuff". I think maybe we often get so attached to our material possessions, that we forget to become attached to the very character of our Lord, thus becoming more attached to Him. I could not have had the opportunities I've experienced without Christ stepping in to take from me the very possessions He's loaned me to begin with. I would not have had the opportunities to better know Him and to experience the peace and security He so freely extends to me. I have to remind myself frequently that everything I have is His to begin with. What difference does it make if He takes it back? In addition, what difference does it make whether or not my future vehicle is nice looking or not? It really doesn't matter. I think I would prefer the opportunity to drive a "conversation piece" resulting in sharing the testimony of God's provision in my life repeatedly rather than owning a fully loaded, top-of-the-line, 2nd-mortgage classic that gives no cause for such explanation. Maybe this is part of becoming a grape!?!!!?